July 7th

This will be the day Alex turns 4 months old.
He is getting so big. 
I can't not believe only mere months ago he was incapable of head control.
Now he is trying to sit, walk, and talk. All at once.
Its very intense.
I love my little man :D

Alexander Orion

Alexander Orion
My everything.
I didn't think I could love someone so much.
I'm proud to be his mother.
I never thought I would be mother.ever.
It's intense.
I wouldn't trade it for anything though.
I still do what has to been done, such as college.
I better myself for him, and I also do it for me.
My everything needs me to be everything I can be for him.
I love my little jellybean :D

New to everything

All the things new to me in this past year:

1. Pregnancy
2. Motherhood; A tough joy
3. Committed Relationship
4. Adulthood

Pregnancy: It was very shocking when I found out. I was one of those girls that thought pregnancy was impossible. I never thought it would happen. I figured that I should know if I was pregnant or not. At first I was really sick; actually I stayed sick until I gave birth. I didn't feel pretty at all. I never glowed. It kind of sucked.

Motherhood: I'm still very new to this. As Alexander gets older motherhood will change over time. We will have different experiences to proceed to. It will be a crazy ride, because it has been so far

Committed Relationship: Jeremy. My love. I don't love him because he inpregnated me, I love him because he completes me. Before I met Jeremy my life was a ticking time bomb. I was a horrible teenager. The smoker, the drinker, the stay out all night and partier. All the above. Yeah, I did some pretty stupid shit. I wish I could go back and change everything but can't. I love him and he loves me. We love our beautiful son Alexander.

Adulthood: I was only 17 for 4months before I got pregnant. I was still a child. There was so much more I wanted to do. I had to grow up for my family. I am an adult now. I raise my son. I pay my bills. I love my fiance/future husband. It's hard but I do it. I complain sometimes as does everyone. I get through it. I go to school so my son can have the best I can give him. It was duely needed.

The End.